Calm before the storm?

I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet of late. Not that I have anyone chomping at the bit to read my blog!

Anyway, it’s not so much that life has been hectic but life has been a long line of things I can’t do. It’s very much affecting my mental health, many evenings I have sat just feeling like an empty vessel. Work is hard, it seems to either be all or nothing.

I’m not a great socialite, but I need my time away from home or work and that not happening. Christmas is coming and the things I would look forward to-Christmas markets, the Steampunk Yule Ball in Exeter and seeing my family are just a distant dream. I feel like I’m letting my friends down, but I struggle to know what I can do to make them feel cared for. I absolutely miss the gym, which is something I never thought I would say. I like the the (normal times ) safety of the gym-the cleanliness, no risk of tripping over stuff, no one taking notice of me and the comfort of air con. But the gym is not a place I feel safe at the moment.

I did put my Wii on today for the first time in 77 days it seems. I had a little dance around and felt ok but also so tired.

I am just so damn tired. Which leads to lack of motivation.

On a positive note, I have done some crafting, I just can’t post about it because one thing is for Guyltys Christmas Charity Auctions (if it arrives in Ireland this coming week) and the other thing is a Christmas present. Plus the #RichieHolidayCardSwap on twitter via PlushieRichie .

So hopefully there will be a couple blog posts coming up soon about those bits.

Anyway, I just wanted to fill you in

just John Standring eating a sausage..

12 Comments

  1. Thank you for Teddy bear! You hardly let anyone down and I absolutely commiserate about the lack of exercise. I haven’t moved a muscle since late March!
    You’ve been a godsend through this whole 2020 to me and many of your real life friends and I suspect online fandom friends.
    Your creativity in crafting and writing and sending me posts and keeping my spirits up I’m forever indebted to you.
    And I chomp at the bit waiting for your next blog post, there I’ve said it!😘❤️

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  2. No sign of the parcel today. But Rachel, listen – please don’t let me or the auctions hold you back. You can show off your fabulous crafty products any time. It’s just *me* who is going to wait until the items go live on Thursday. But you made the beauties, and therefore it is your call to show them!
    That sneak peek of your Christmas card is very pretty with the robin and the three dimensional star.

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      1. Yep, I have not given up hope yet. And I am also considering simply extending the fixed price sale if need be. One way or another, we’ll get these lovely things shown!

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  3. Don’t sell yourself short, I enjoy reading your blog!
    I hear you on feeling down, I think very many of us do during all these lockdowns. Even I, as an introvert, am getting weary of it all. Hang in there, try not to beat yourself up and try to find solace in the smaller things in life (I know I try to) and in your crafting. That little sneakpeek looks good!

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  4. Your blogs are great Rachel and it’s nice to see that you’re back. I’m sorry that you are feeling so tired and that work is hard. It’s all abit flat at the moment isn’t it but Esther ‘s right about appreciating the small things. Here’s to the next steampunk ball when you can put on your finery and strut your stuff. I’m looking forward to seeing your creations!

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  5. It’s a really stressful time. The constant low-level anxiety will be draining, and sapping your mental energy. It *is* tiring. I berate myself for not being particularly productive (“I’m at home, with nothing but work and hobbies to do, I should be doing it all!”) and actually we all need to be kinder to ourselves.

    I put a silly little pressie in the post to you and A. It’s nothing big, but I had to get it for you when I saw it.

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